NEVERMIND... IM HAFFY =)

well its been over a year since we started writing in this thing... and theres only like.. 10 entries lol. robbie youve probably forgotten about this thing along with everyone else so whatever...

i'm so...i dont want to say depressed...but something like it. im not too sure why. could be cause ive been on lockdown for like the past month or 2. but im pretty sure thats not the only reason. i hate it here at home, not just because it's boring but... yeah i dont want the entire world to know so whatever. my heart hurts... not like im gonna have a heart attack or something. but everytime i feel something. lately ive been keeping alot of my feelings inside and i guess its affecting me physically too? i dont know. i can never really sleep and i sometimes feel like crying. i hope this all goes away soon....

-freedrick

HAHA....i totally forgot about this thing. then i remembered it lol. well me and robbie stopped talking... i know i know youre thinking "again!?" lol but it was actually pretty horrible..i mean more horrible than the other times we stopped talking. you know how whenever we stopped talking, it would last for like a week at the most and then one of us would give in cause neither of us could take it?? weeeeellll that didnt happen this time... yeah kids we stopped talking for like 5 or 6 months... the usual saying we didnt care and didnt give a fuck about how the other person felt. well actually i think robbie REALLY did feel that way... deep down inside i was dying without my best friend but my pride and stubborness got in the way and things just went downhill from there. for a LITTLE while i thought i would be fine but turns out i needed him more than i thought. i went through so much and it was that much harder going through all of it WITHOUT him... well after those LONG months of not talking, i finally gave in to the fact that i NEEDED him in my life to stay sane lol. we're good now, and i guess you can say "we're getting there" .. wherever "there" is. you probably arent reading this robbie cause neither of us has written here for like YEARS but i MISSED YOU and i know things will probably NEVER be exactly the same but im really really really glad we're talking again.also im soooooooooo fucking sorry i cant apologize enough but i can try lol. i seriously cant explain how much you matter to me.i have so many regrets when it comes to us its crazy. maybe i'll tell you those regrets some day but not here lol.no more drama EVER please.

well anyway i know the other day i dropped a fucking bomb on you.. well actually you supposedly "sensed it" lol but i dunno maybe all those months of missing you built up and yeah well i guess im glad i got things off my chest. i know you got things in your life right now that are more important and you got your own thing going on but honestly i'm cool with everything as long as nothing changes between us, lol i should stop because im starting to sound like you haha...

I FUCKING LOVE YOU.  NEVER stopped & NEVER will.

i just remembered "BIRTHDAY PARTY"

- freedrick

ok NOW zunizon is done and over...watever...im tired of tryin u can change evrything here to PACO and ROSALINA hahahhah be happy guys always and forever....

i still love u tin...n i aint gon stop....

_cHucK

SPRiNG BREAK LOSERS!!! ROBBiE YOU PROMiSED ME YOU WOULD TAKE ME OUT SO YOU BETTER!! DAMN DUDE SOMEONE PiCK ME UP...i JUST HAVE TO FUCKiNG LiVE iN CANOGA PARK, i DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE THAT iS. iM BORED iN THiS SHiTHOLE...OUTTiNG WiTH BEST FRiENDS ON MONDAY SO THERES ONE DAY NOT SPENT HERE. AND WEDNESDAY...AND SATURDAY...MAYBE SUNDAY. i THiNK TALKiNG TO ROBBiE IS THE ONLY THiNG KEEPiNG ME SANE RiGHT NOW, WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU SO HAPPY AND CRAP ??HAHA...WHATEVER DUDES...

-freedrick